Broke.

Taglish, ha.

Thanks.

Sige. Sabihin nating slf pity ‘tong ginagawa ko. Pero I’m just so hurt na. I don’t want to live any longer and if I do, all I’d think about is killing myself because that’d be the only thing that’ll make me happy. I’m so full of hurt that dying would be nothing already. At first, yeah I was happy. I was happy that I know I still have friends. Friends who I can trust, love and be with for the rest of my life [I hope.] Pero, everytime na maisip ko lahat ng nangyari sakin, damn. Please. Just kill me. I’m so hurt, I don’t know what else to do. I want to give up my life. I want to let go of everything already. ‘Cause I’m just too hurt. Yeah, I love him and that’s what hurts the most. Thinking of all the things that has happened and still end up loving him. I’m so hurt by that. I was so stupid to hang on. I’m the type who says let go when it’s too much to people and yet, when it’s me, I still keep hanging on. But im trying to learn to let go – of everything. Everything.

I don’t want this anymore. I can’t stop. I hate everything ive done, good or bad. I’m so sick.

I want to give up.

I want to let go.

Please.

AYOKO NA.

bianca de dios: Kaya mo din yan.
Elora Picson: no.
Elora Picson: i cant.
Elora Picson: i know i may seem like an optimist or everything. pero im not a happy person at all.
Elora Picson: i try to be.
Elora Picson: kasi i want to move on from the past.
Elora Picson: when i was so emo and shit,.
Elora Picson: pero its who i am.
Elora Picson: im not a happy person.
Elora Picson: i can never be.
Elora Picson: it's just not me. i know that deep inside me, no matter how hard i try, i will always be in need.
Elora Picson: and i cant stop that.

Promise me you guys’ll have a party when I die.

Juno is love. :>

Buy Juno.

Watch Juno.

Love Juno.

Lol.

We sure are cute for two ugly people. <3

Got it from a girl in Multiply <3

Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now.
(both sigh n silence for a while)
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game
Peter: Eh? What game?
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2:
Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.

Day 3:
They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:

Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:
Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together
for a while.

Day 67:
They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.

Day 84:
Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:
They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.

The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

Tina,
Our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you.

My New Love.

<3 http://www.youtube.com/user/OfficialChipmunks

<3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFYS8HHaP_Q&feature=user

UGHHH. I love them. :) My favorite’s Hate That I Love You. Lol.

My new love. :)

Kidding. I love you, still. Mwh.

Kagagahan.

Bambam:

Si Colbie Callait got discovered sa MySpace lang pala.

Mom:

Ano ‘yun?

Bambam:

It’s like Friendster. Pero sa States. I guess she recorded herself there. Then she got discovered.

Mom:

Why don’t you do that?

Bambam:

…Hirap mag upload, eh. :)

It’s true, man. It’s so hard to upload videos. :( Fucking fucker. :)) I’m so bored. And it’s so hot. :( And I’m so bored. Ang labo. Lol.

Today, I’ve been more of… pissed off. :| I always am, yes, that’s true. Last night I talked to him on the phone. I was happy. Yet, we were serious. ‘hem’hem. So we’re going to talk after Holy Week. Will I still be alive by then? :( I can’t stand it. :( I miss him. I can’t even live two days without talking to him or even texting him. ANO PA KAYA ANG ISANG LINGGO? PATAY NA KO. :( I love him that much, chooong. :(

I’ll admit. I want to. But I know I’m not allowed. And I’m controlling myself. I have one in my bag, I’ll throw it, I promise. ==^~ GETS? Lol. Ano na ba ang nangyayari sa aking utak. Pukengina. =)) I MISS LEVEL EIGHT NA. =)) Sige, sige. Nakakabaliw na ito. Adios, mi amigos. (?)

31st.

Seriously this time.

WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ON MY DAY. :)

If you ask me, I just wanna do my thing. D&S. :| But of course, I can’t.

And if I will, WHERE. :) HELP. :))

So far I want 17 people to come. :> Hahaha. You’ll know if you’re there. :)

Okay, bye.

IM me. ;)

Hearts All Over The World Tonight

1 . Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?


6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends
together.


KEEP READING


1 1. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,
deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her
more than you, deny it. fight back and
hug her tight so she can't get to her
friends. it makes her feel loved.


Ar e you thinking of someone?


16. Always hug her and say I love you
whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the
waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about
her.


One last thing you need to do to show
her you actually do mean it.


21. Open doors for her, walk her to
her car- it makes her feel protected,
plus it never hurts to act like a
gentleman.
2 2. Tell her she's your everything -
only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is
something wrong, ask her- if she
denies something being wrong, it means
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so
just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25-kiss her in front of OTHER girls
you know!!!!*


WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26-don't lie to HER.
27-DON'T cheat on her.*
28-take her ANYWHERE she wants
29-txt messege or call her in the
morning and tell her have a good day
at work {or school}, and how much you
MISS her.
30-be there for her when ever she
needs you, & even when she doesn't
need you, just be there so she'll know
that she can ALWAYS count on you.*


ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER
BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT


31. Hold her close when she's cold so
she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close
and kiss her.*
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK; (it will
give her the hint that you want to
kiss her).*
34. While in the movies, put your arm
around her and then she will
automaticall y put her head on your
shoulder, then lean in and tilt her
chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even
jokingly or act like you're mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.


REME MBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT


36. When people DISS her, stand up for
her.*
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell
her you love her.*
38. Lay down under the STARS and put
her head on your chest so she can
listen to the steady beat of your
heart, Link your fingers together
while you whisper to her as she rests
her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other
grab her HAND.*
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your
arms as long as possible*


MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED


41. Call or text her at night to wish
her SWEET DREAMS*
42. COMFORT her when she cries and
wipe away her tears.*
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you
love her.*
45.sit on top of her and tell her how
much u love her and then bend down to
her face and kiss her while sitting on
her.

y o u'll never know when she needs
just
a lil more love

I l y.

Yesterday

Yesterday, as planned, I was with Bianca – my sis - almost the whole day.

First we were at Starbucks Katips.

Then we left Joanne there. [I l y, sis. :) ]

Then we went to Shopwise by Araneta.

Then to AliMall to look for Lanyards.

Then to SM to walk.

Then to Gateway.

I admit, it was really planned that Sunshine would come with us to go somewhere on the last day of school. But since we’re not okay [Sunshine & I], it ended up being me and Bianca. Since Bianca really wanted us to be okay already, she texted and called him and whatever. So then we went to Gateway and saw him there and we were sort of talking. But it was still not… I don’t know.. It hurt to be there in front of him and not be with him. Yeah, okay. We were laughing and whatever but since I knew something was wrong, it didn’t feel right to be in front of him. I don’t know. I was so happy – sorta. Then he kept on telling Bianca and I if we’d leave already or whatever. Since Bianca was really hungry, we ate at the Food Court without him. He separated from us then we ate. After eating, Bianca thought that he had left and we should be going. So we left Gateway and got a cab and we were so, so stressed out.

When we were already at Katipunan, he texted Bianca asking if we were still there. I think Bianca didn’t bother texting him so we left him be. I brought Bianca down at Katipunan then I head for Patricia’s house since my mom knew I was there the entire time. What was cute was that on my way to the gate of the village, I saw Patricia and I let her get in. She told me it was the funniest 5 seconds of her life. When we were exactly by the gate, he called. He asked me where I was already and I told him I was already in my friend’s village. He wanted me to go back to Gateway. I told him I couldn’t and then we said goodbye. Then I kept talking about him when Patricia and I were in her Mom’s room. I really kept talking about him. Saying how it felt so weird and everything but I was still happy that I saw him. Patricia was even making fun of me already. SORRY, HA. Then I got hyper then we treated ourselves to a McDo delivery and then I left at I think 5.15.

---

Acknowledgements =)))

Joanne – Sis. :) I was so happy to see you yesterday. Let’s meet again, ha. I l y. Thanks yesterday for the. Hahaha. I l y talaga.

Patricia – Thanks for letting me stay at your house and we were so hyper. Haha. I l y, Pating. :)

Bianca – I should thank you the most. We went everywhere. HAHAHA. I l y sis. Thanks for at least trying to get him and I okay. Thanks for paying almost everything. Sorry, ha. Bankrupt, eh. :)) I’ll pay you, soon. APRIL 12, HA. I l y, sis. SO MUCH!

Sunshine – I want us to be okay already. I miss you. I love you.

Shit, loser. =) I'm bored.

HOLLERRR!

Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars ♥

I have a lot to share right now since I have nothing else to do. And I have a lot to say, really. A lot.

If I run out of things to say, I apologize.

First of all, I’m a bored girl. A bored, hyper and confused girl. :] Ridiculous, I know. I’m also tired. As in physically tired. Haha. I was with Patricia and others earlier and we had a shoot. So anyways, I’m still tired from that but I still want to go out or something or just lie down on my bed and watch TV. I’m that bored and tired. Nobody’s texting me. HAHA, sorry. I’m a loser. :)

Second, I’m thinking of someone. I don’t know why. Oh, great. The person just signed on. HAHA. I’m such a big loser. :)

Third, school’s practically over!!! All we gots to do is have our clearances signed and clean the classroom tomorrow. And we’re off! Third year, bitch. THIRD YEAR. I’m excited. Loser. :)

Fourth, I’m falling more in love with music. Music is lalalalalove. I can’t go through a day without music. I want to die with music playing in my ears. LOOOOSEEERRR. :)

Fifth, we’re not talking.

Give a shit?

K, bye. :)

LLLLOOOOOSSSSSEEEEERRRRR <3

By the way, remember the second one thingy? The person signed off now. I didn’t talk to the person. Waha. Bye.

I’m so confused.

Just one day.

One day.

I wonder what my summer would be without my friends&with out you.

I just wonder.

Im not saying it would be like that.

But what if it does turn out like that?

Im so confused.

Just one day.

One day.

Change

One Monday afternoon, a girl was texting with her guy. They were texting the whole afternoon except when the girl took a nap. When she woke up, they continued texting. What made the girl wonder is why the guy wasn’t replying after she ate dinner. At 9:30pm, she’d texted the guy three times already with no reply and said goodnight to him instead. At ten thirty, the girl was still awake and the guy called her on her cell phone to tell her not to sleep yet. The girl complained that she was tired and sleepy so the guy let her sleep and just wake up at twelve to one o’clock in the morning. They girl said okay and they bid goodbyes. At eleven thirty, the girl fell asleep.

At twelve nineteen am, the girl woke up and found the guy’s texts telling her to wake up. She replied to his texts and he told her that he slashed [le gasp!]. The girl asked why and was replied with a Cn u call? She did and he confirmed [yeah, confirmed.] if he could kapre. :)) [wait!!!!! Natawa ako. :) ] fine, fine. I’ll just say that he confirmed if he could smoke. The girl said okay and asked where he was and she was surprised when the guy said he drank! The conversation was cut ‘cause the girl didn’t have load anymore. The guy [for once] sent the girl load so they could continue texting. The girl said that she was mad and the guy asked why. She said it was because he drank without telling her. Her point was that it was unfair for the guy for not telling her before he drank. The girl always asked permission from the guy before she did something like that. He said sorry though. But she felt like it wasn’t a real sorry since after all, he did just drink. Another reason why she was upset is because the girl knows that the guy isn’t like that. She knew he didn’t like those things but she was surprised to find out that he was doing them. The girl fell asleep at three am when the guy wasn’t replying anymore.

She woke up for school at six am and found text messages from the guy saying that the cigarette was good and that he was done. The girl regretted that she allowed him to smoke and stuff and she felt bad for the rest of the day. It was a bad thing since the next day was their monthsary. The girl was continually texting with the guy the rest of the day [of course] and saw that he changed it she didn’t like it at first but the guy pointed out to her the good parts of his change. The girl apologized and all. And they had an uneventful monthsary the next day. The girl was beginning to like the new attitude of the guy more and more. She was beginning to get over the things that happened last Monday and she was happy.

The girl hopes that she and the guy are okay now.

Since she really loves him and all that. :) Okay, the end.xxx

[I`m sleepy.]

SLEEPY :|

Last school week next week, yo.

Megally.

I`m sleepy. Bye. :)

Iloveyou, by the way. :*

You're so EEWW. =)

For that girl who’s just really annoying :)

Hey bitch, can you stop it? Wala na kami ginagawa sa’yo. :) And omg. Ang plastic mo, mehn! Tanginaaa. =)) I hope you fucking burn in hell, dear. :) Sobrang hindi ka na nga kinikibuan, eh. Tapos ang plastic mo pa! EW. =] Girl, know who you’re messing with. And btw, tangina mo! Tigilan mo na nga kaibigan ko!! BAKIT? Feel mo naman ang ganda mo! YOU’RE RIGHT, sinulat mo you’re not pretty. WOW. Ang talino mo pala, ha. :) VERYYYYY. :) I hate you, girl! Burn baby, burn. :)

-- Elora <3>

HEY YOU. :]

Hoydy-hoy-hoy.

I am in need of your help! Hahaha. It’s for our English Specialized project. It’s the book cover for our book [K.]. I need it edited and I don’t have Photoshop. :| And I don’t have good editing skills or I’m not good in ART. Bigo made this, by the way. He just told me to scan and edit. :| Okay, sige. You can color it, if you want. Change some, if you want. :) I’ll just show it to him tomorrow.

BTW, the title of the book is Baby Dress.

It’s this girl who’s torn between her childhood and her teenage years. :) That can help in editing, right? :) Sige, sige! IM me or BUZZ me na lang. :) Thank you to whoever is accepting the job. :))

BTW, I need it today. :))

ILYYY. :)

<3

This week is far from uneventful. Sobra. A lot happened. :)

MONDAY

Wow, ha. Osige, ganito. :))

No classes because of EDSA day. Or something like that. :)) So I went to SM North with my parents because I needed to get my eyes checked. :)) I have astigmatism. :o It’s like, everything gets unclear when you have a headache or something. So I got glasses. :| Yeah. 75 yung grade. I have to wear them for 6 months. :P So ‘yun.

After that, Sunshine and I had a fight. :( Super hindi ko alam nun kung mag sosorry ako kasi nahurt rin ako. :( But I understand naman kasi fault ko rin ‘yun. :( But that’s done now. :) So okay na kami.

I love him so much. :*

TUESDAY

Nothing eventful happened. It was a Tuesday. Case closed.

WEDNESDAY

Again, uneventful. I think. Wait.

Yeah, wala nga. :|

THURSDAY

:( I’d call this day, TOO MUCH LATTE. :(

After school, my mom told me to go to Mocha Blends kasi dun ako susunduin. So Hannah and I rode a tricycle to MB then she stayed with me for about 45 minutes or so. The time when Hannah was there, Patty arrived. :) She stayed with us for about 15 minutes then we had an open forum. To my friends, I’m sorry I’m always mataray. Ganun lang talaga ako. :( I’m so super sorry. I’ll try my best to change. Sorry talaga. Then everything came back to normal. :) I missed them. The awkwardness hurt me and taught me a lesson. :) I love you, guys. :) Then they left na. So there.

My parents picked me up ng mga 3.30? We went home for about an hour and I was talking to Bianca. :) My sis. I love her so much! We made kwento. As ALWAYS. Tapos tangina ka, Bianca. =))))) She kept on telling me things about ehemehem and Sunshine. Pinapakilig ako, amputa. =)) Tapos ‘yun. I left na. >:P We went to Chocolate Lover which closed earlier than we expected, then we got something from someone then went to TriNoma and ate at Cyma. I love it there. Sobrang I love it there.

Then it happened. My bad luck started. I thought that day was perfect ‘cause my love [whatta.] and I weren’t having misunderstandings. Then he told me something. I WAS SO FREAKIN’ HURT. SOBRA. SOBRA SOBRA SOBRAAAA. Then he called me up saying he loves me sobra and all. Then I drank too much latte. :| I got home, talked to Ana on the phone. I told her I wanted to break up with him and I was sure. SOBRANG TANGA KO. I did break up with him and ended up crying like a baby. So Ana helped me talk to him. We had a deal, sorta. He has to come to my village. :)) Then ‘yun. We all slept na. I slept at 2 am, crying. Ang tanga ko, I know. Too much latte.

FRIDAY

Fuck, puta.

Instead of a Morning or Hey from him, I received a message that broke my heart. :( Sobrang ayoko na. He told me things that hurt me that morning but at the same time, some words there were touching. All I had to say was an Okay since I was nearing school and I didn’t have time to make a long text. I should have, though. But I didn’t. So when I got to school, I went to my MOMMY. :) Ms. Rica. I told her I needed to talk to someone. She told me a lot that made me look so stupid. [STUPID NGA NAMAN TALAGA YUNG GINAWA KO.] Then I told my betches I broke up with him. They were there naman. :) I love them. Then I told Sir Mackie. HE CAUGHT ME. =)))) Sama mo talaga, sir. =)) Then I missed him SOBRA. I was so bitchy and all. I shouted at Mario. :( Sorry, true friend. I was that mean. I felt so incomplete. I love him so much. He’s my everything, now. I love him. I texted him, I’m sorry. Then he wasn’t replying. I texted Ana that I couldn’t do it anymore. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. :( I wanted to kill myself right then and there.

Then ECA time, we had a vain period. We were writing stuff and I told them we were over. They were surprised, ha. :)) Everyone was, actually. My teachers, my classmates, my chorale mates. Everyone was like, “Ha?! Bakit?! Sinaktan ka?! Puta.” Yeah, may mura. :)) I love them. Anyways, we were vain ‘cause it was the last day of ECA. :( I love you, my chorale-mates. I love you guys so much. You taught me a lot. I love you, nanay and tatay. :) Sorry na sa mga mali ko. I love you guys so much. :) CHORALE ULIT, HA. :) Then we decided to go to Mocha Blends. We had a blast there. Kwentuhan, vanity. Ughh. I’m going to miss my family. :) I LOVE YOU, GUYS. They were there to tell me that everything’s going to be okay.

Then I asked him to call me. We talked and I was about to cry in the rain. WOW, HA. :) Ambon lang naman, eh. Then I told him everything na. He told me to go home na then we’ll talk. When I got home, I had to study then he called me. Then EVERYTHING WAS OKAY AND BACK TO NORMAL. :) I’m so stupid, eh. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, MY SUNSHINE. :) Then ‘yun.

This week has been mostly about him. :) ‘Cause he’s my everything. I love him so much. I could never ask for anyone else. :) He’s my happiness. He can make me sad sometimes pero okay lang kasi it’s normal. I LOVE YOU. You’re my only one. I’m so happy with you. I’m so in love. :) I love you so much, my Sunshine. I will never ever let go ever again and that’s my promise. :) You are my everything. I love you. I love you so muccch. I’m so in love. :) Paulit ulit but it’s true. :) I’m sorry for my faults and everything. I’m not perfect. But I try to be the best I can. :) For you lang, babe. :) I love you. So freakin much. I miss you. I love you!!

Advance Happy Monthsary, babe. :) I love you. :)