got it from F r e y a . :)

Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one.

The ones who waited all night for him to text, only to check your cell phone the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, then listened to him say that he loves and misses you, and the next when he doesn't want to be anything at all. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.

We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, and even snuck around to see him even for a while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us.

Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest everything, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if".

This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with.

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "You're just not the one for me." or maybe, "things were going too fast, I'm just not ready." (Then later on find out he has a damn girlfriend already.)

Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.
The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so."
The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their beds, and their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us when ever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that.
Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave one thought about them.
Here's for the time that he took to waste, breaking your heart ... again.

This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment.
Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better.
This is for those confusing days, when you miss him,and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist.

Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass,sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt all over again. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When your song comes on the radio, turn the station.
When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.

Think of all the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the HELL he was.
Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day, you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry.You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will.
It's gonna hurt like hell, and it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

:-j

9 lasts

1. cigarette: :)
2. beverage: Coke.
3. kiss: Mom. =)))
4. hug: Mom. \:D/
5. movie seen: Over the Hedge. :-j
6. cd played: the cd I burned.
7. song listened to: dreaming of yooou. :)
8. bubble bath: When I was… 10.
9. time you cried: when I woke up this morning. :o

8 have you evers

1. dated one of your best friends: Neverrr. :)
2. skinny dipped: Nah.
3. kissed somebody and regretted it: Yea. :)) Uy, wait. Beso beso ‘yun. :)
4. fallen in love: YEAH. :)
5. lost someone you loved: hellyeah.
6. been depressed: yeah.
7. been drunk and threw up: NO. =))
8. ran away: WALKED OUT. :> :> :>

7 states you've been to
1. I
2. have
3. not
4. been
5. to
6. any.
7. WAAH. :-j

6 things you've done today
1. cry.
2. sob.
3. read a text message.
4. cooked!
5. drank
6. turn on the laptop. :)

5 favorite things in no order

1. cellphone.
2. computer/laptop
3. mp3 player
4. camera!
5. speakers :|;))

4 people you last talked to

1. my sister.
2. my maid.
3. no one
4. else. :o

3 wishes

1. i wish I could get a new phone, ASAP. :)
2. I could go out with my friends. :) – i`mgrounded,bitch.
3. get a summer workshop. :)

2 things you want to be when you grow up

1. journalist :D
2. singer/composer. =))))))

1 thing you regret

1. not being a good girl during the past school year. :-jjjjj

S o h a r d t o w a l k a w a y.

She still loves him.

i miss

times when one of us would call each other before we go to sleep.

it when we IM each other when both of us are online at the same time and laugh about stuff.

waking up in the morning during the weekends and finding a text from you saying goodmorning or whatever.

texting with you the whole day.

hugging the teddy bear you gave me and just thinking about wanting to be with you.

hearing my phone make a sound and seeing your name there.

thinking that you don`t love me and tell you then you tell me you do and i`m happy.

(weird, I know.)

those times when you`d text me sweet things.

crying because i`m happy because of you.

telling you you`re my only one.

telling my mom i`m at someone`s place when after all, i`m at the mall with you. laughing and talking and walking.

It when you call randomly.

smiling whenever you go online.

the times when i`d jump, laugh and have tears in my eyes when I think of you.

but to cut it short,

i miss you, sunshine.

iloveyou,always.

always.

i don't know why.
maybe it's because you're mad,
maybe it's because you're afraid,
maybe it's because you're also a little confused,
but whatever the reason,
you're breaking my heart.

Broke.

Taglish, ha.

Thanks.

Sige. Sabihin nating slf pity ‘tong ginagawa ko. Pero I’m just so hurt na. I don’t want to live any longer and if I do, all I’d think about is killing myself because that’d be the only thing that’ll make me happy. I’m so full of hurt that dying would be nothing already. At first, yeah I was happy. I was happy that I know I still have friends. Friends who I can trust, love and be with for the rest of my life [I hope.] Pero, everytime na maisip ko lahat ng nangyari sakin, damn. Please. Just kill me. I’m so hurt, I don’t know what else to do. I want to give up my life. I want to let go of everything already. ‘Cause I’m just too hurt. Yeah, I love him and that’s what hurts the most. Thinking of all the things that has happened and still end up loving him. I’m so hurt by that. I was so stupid to hang on. I’m the type who says let go when it’s too much to people and yet, when it’s me, I still keep hanging on. But im trying to learn to let go – of everything. Everything.

I don’t want this anymore. I can’t stop. I hate everything ive done, good or bad. I’m so sick.

I want to give up.

I want to let go.

Please.

AYOKO NA.

bianca de dios: Kaya mo din yan.
Elora Picson: no.
Elora Picson: i cant.
Elora Picson: i know i may seem like an optimist or everything. pero im not a happy person at all.
Elora Picson: i try to be.
Elora Picson: kasi i want to move on from the past.
Elora Picson: when i was so emo and shit,.
Elora Picson: pero its who i am.
Elora Picson: im not a happy person.
Elora Picson: i can never be.
Elora Picson: it's just not me. i know that deep inside me, no matter how hard i try, i will always be in need.
Elora Picson: and i cant stop that.

Promise me you guys’ll have a party when I die.

Juno is love. :>

Buy Juno.

Watch Juno.

Love Juno.

Lol.

We sure are cute for two ugly people. <3

Got it from a girl in Multiply <3

Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now.
(both sigh n silence for a while)
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game
Peter: Eh? What game?
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2:
Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.

Day 3:
They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:

Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:
Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together
for a while.

Day 67:
They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.

Day 84:
Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:
They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter. Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.

The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

Tina,
Our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you.